LIVING IN EXILE

I often wonder what is wrong with me. Why have I not accepted my new home? Will it be permanent? Am I just ungrateful? Why do I keep longing to "be home"? Do people look at me and think she needs to just get over it?

I look at other people who have made the move and they seem undoubtedly excited--why not me too. I am grateful and excited about us being together however I still feel we were not given a choice and this fact I just can't seem to reconcile.